Getting healthy and losing weight is hard. And I know that saying so doesn’t make my blog all light and fluffy and enjoyable to read. I’m ok with that. I’m ok with it because the reality is something that more people should address. It seems that time and time again I will read blogs about health and people will write all the happy successes and joyous moments of feeling great, but they don’t want to share the struggles. I don’t know about you readers, but I have way more struggles than happy successes. And those struggles take a lot of effort to work through. Those struggles require that I am fully committed to a process that may take much longer than the year I planned out.
When I started 2018, I had set some goals for myself. Based on the monthly goals I had written out in my planner, I should have lost 28 pounds by now.
That has not happened.
Not even close.
And that is so very frustrating. But at the same time, I only have myself to blame. I have given up on the process numerous times. I have decided I just don’t care numerous times. I have shoved a lot of unhealthy junk down my throat numerous times, and lazily decided not to exercise numerous times.
I can’t blame anyone for that other than me.
So this week, I asked myself a big question… What am I lacking?
One word explains everything, and that word is commitment.
In order to get healthy and successfully reach the goals I set for myself, I need commitment.
When I started the year, I felt I had all the commitment in the world. A few months in, I still felt that commitment. But eventually, I started to see the commitment fade. I started to slide back into old habits and routines. I started to justify bad choices. I started to excuse what I knew was not going to help me.
And I did that a lot.
The result of all that justifying and excusing is me not being nearly where I want to be at this point in the year.
I’ve lacked commitment, and now I’m sitting here marinating in that lack.
I need to recommit.
So I guess this week’s update is a recommitment to the process. It takes effort and it takes work and it takes better life choices… And it’s important that I stay the course. It’s important that I don’t give up.
I’m so sick and tired of quitting.
I quit a lot. I quit and then I get angry with myself. And then I use that anger as an excuse, and I eat all the things and sit around doing nothing… the cycle needs to end.
I struggle with the cycle.
Reality is such that my healthy journey isn’t all peaches and cream, warm and fuzzy, protein shakes and 5k runs. My healthy journey is a constant recommitment to keep trying because I don’t want to continue quitting on myself.
What is your journey like?