I’m pretty sure that spring just forgot to come to Wyoming. Maybe it’s waiting for some sort of invitation. Who knows… I’m just done with snow and gloom and winter and wind and rain and clouds and gray. I’m done with gray.
This week has been very hard.
I didn’t get out as much as I would have liked.
There was snow. And rain. And snow. And wind. And gray.
I’d like to not complain and tell you that everything is just peachy. I’m sorry if I seem like I’m whining. But everything is not peachy. I am not in a happy, cheerful place. I am dealing with some very serious internal struggles that I believe are directly related to the gray.
I take vitamin D3, B12, and a multivitamin, but it’s not enough. The one nice day followed by six gloomy ones is getting to me. I’m not myself. Or maybe I am and I am just discovering this side of me. I don’t know, but it’s depressing… I’m depressed? Seasonal depression is a thing… and it’s real.
I’ve been told that because this is my first full year of experiencing life up North, I will need time to adjust. I’m told that next year will be better.
I believe that. I know I need to adjust.
But this week I have just felt like hiding. All I have really wanted to do is curl up in a ball and cry.
I don’t even know what I want to cry about. Not a clue.
I know spring will come eventually and the sun will shine and I will get outside and be more active. I know life will go on. I know I will enjoy summer when it hits and that I will feel better.
I know this is temporary.
But these feelings are all new to me. I’m dealing with it in the only ways I know how.
But the health journey and the weight loss… I’ll keep trying. That’s all I can say. I’ll keep trying and I’ll keep posting about it. Eventually, I will be back to my normal self, doing what I want, dropping pounds again, and feeling energized. For now, though, it’s all just stalled out.