Have you ever felt like you lost who you were somehow? I’ve been going through that a bit lately. Actually, I’ve been going through that for quite some time now. I work so hard at being a mom and wife, but somewhere along the way I began forgetting to work on me. And I don’t just mean weight loss here. That seems to be a never ending battle for myself and for many other women. What I mean is that somewhere along the way I forgot to pursue the things that I’m passionate about… And eventually, somehow, somewhere along the way, I just forgot altogether what made me, well, me.
So I decided to do something about it. I’ve always loved journaling and I decided to join a group that was dedicated to helping women figure out just who they are outside of motherhood. A group that uses journaling to get to heart of who you are. I’m not promoting the group (not an affiliate, not getting paid) so I am not going to put any links or anything. I just wanted to come on my blog and share a little bit about something I enjoy that’s making a difference in my life.
I even got a new journal cover for the occasion. Sometimes just having something new and fresh can make a project more exciting. On my journal cover (a.k.a. traveler’s notebook) it reads “make it count” – as in, make life count. I don’t want to just keep going through the motions. Life is meant to be so much more.
The group I joined is called Project Me and it is ran by an amazing woman named Jenny Penton. Jenny is a homeschool mom of eight (yes!), an artist, a business owner, and a mentor to so many women. She teaches women to “write a better story” – in other words, to dream and envision and create the life you want, learning who you are in the process, working through any hurts or struggles, while learning to speak truth and life over everything you do.
This is not some new age hocus pocus stuff. Jenny is a Christian and everything she teaches is filled with Biblical, spiritual, elements.
Jenny creates the most amazing journals and plan books. One is specifically for the Project Me group and it has a cute little wren on the cover. Others are used for a wide variety of things. She makes devotional journals, gratitude journals, scripture journals, blank journals, and so much other stuff that it’s just hard to write it all down here. She also has a talent and a gift with words that just makes sense to me.
I purchased a few journals from her, I joined the group, and I have been diving in ever since. I mean like serious deep end diving… I’ve got a lot going on in my brain and it’s all coming out.
I thought a picture of how my books look in my journal cover would be nice. For those who know traveler’s notebooks, this is a Chic Sparrow Mr. Darcy Wide in Martini.
I love it. Love. It.
Back to Project Me… the journal is divided into three sections: Mind, Body, Soul. Learning how to use those sections and learning to speak life over myself, my family, and everything else is really a great experience for me. Jenny talks a lot about taking negatives and turning them around, rewriting them, and speaking truth over ourselves.
Proverbs 18:21 tells us that the tongue can bring life or death, so we need to be using our words properly!
I’ve realized so far in my journey through this that I am holding on to a lot of things that were said to me in the past. And whenever anything negative happens in my life, I go back to those thoughts.
I even realized in one of my journaling times that some of my weight issues went clear back to some words that were spoken to me as a teenager! I still hear those words in my head all the time and I’ve allowed them to come out of my mouth as descriptions of me – and I realize now that in doing so I just allow myself to be those things. I’ve given those words permission to live in me, and that’s changing. I am making serious changes.
I’m also starting to remember the things that excite me. One in particular, but that is for another post. The point is, this Project Me stuff is good for me. It’s good for my soul. Figuring out again who I am outside of a homeschooling mom and a stay-at-home wife is important. I’m also grateful that my husband sees the importance and supports this new project of mine. And stopping the negative thoughts that invade my mind is something that I have needed help on. I actually think that Jenny’s ministry with this was brought to my attention because God knew that I would be ready now. Somewhere along the way, I finally recognized that I was made for more.